Some one please guide me very confused?

No problem. I don't mind reading long stories. I do mind seeing people with health issues ask linguists for help. I'd mind even more if those people actually FOLLOWED the linguists' advice (it's like taking financial advice from your gardener, driving lessons from your dog and legal representation from a ping pong ball named Tootsie: CRAZY), which is why I won't give you any advice. Ask a doctor (you know, Health section?) for help.